6:25am. I'm on the verge of making a life-changing decision. And once again, I feel a compelling need to console in the blogosphere. This particular blog was created in the winter of 2009 out of creative frustration but now it will mark the third phase of my blogging lifespan. The first phase was a fragmented collection of teenage angst dispersed all over the internet, god forbid anybody finds the traces. The second phase was characterised by fluctuations between cringe-worthy and digestible writing. I began to take writing seriously in late adolescence. And accordingly, traces of grandiose delusions could be found at the cross-section of 'serious' posts. On the first of May 2011, we enter the third phase; unversity and the search for a new wave.
Now we shall return to the initial motivation for this post. I am about to drop two university subjects: Quantitative Methods and Introductory Microeconomics. I cannot help but feel the full force of this irreversible decision; it rules out the possibility of me being an economist in the near future, a prospect I was certain of not long ago. The existentialist in me says I have the power, will and right to withdraw and the utilitarian me gives support by upholding the value of happiness but the conservative me just cannot let go. I understand the financial repercussions so that's out of the way. I was so stressed about the implications on my four-year course that I woke up and created my new plan. So the stage is set, I just need to click two buttons. My only assurance is my gut feeling - yes, that one. There is nothing keeping me from falling - suspended in motion. Let us wait for a new tomorrow.
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